Computer Sex

I know, I know... you thought when I said Wednesday, that I meant LAST Wednesday! Okay, I did, but I found that I wasn't really up to computing much. I recently had some surgery and I've been recuperating, getting better everyday. Obviously this has put a damper on my sex life although the hubby made sure we got in one last go round just before I went under the knife! haha

So, I dont' have much to tell or to complain about right now, but I think I may have mentioned a little web cam story?

My husband and I lived "long distance" before we hooked up so we didn't get to see each other a lot. To "keep in touch" we'd hook up our web cams and chat online a lot. Yeah, you got it... eventually that turned into lots of steamy web cam masturbating, etc. Of course, for him it was nothing new because he commonly web cammed with other women before we were together and probably still did in the beginning of our relationship. He isn't doing it now, but I won't say that I believe that he'll never do it again - he likes doing it. I think I mentioned that he's a masturbater and he commonly uses his computer as "jerk off material". Websites like voyeurweb.com and watchersweb.com are among his favorites. We used to actually watch a lot of porn together in the beginning, but thats another thing that has sort of gone by the wayside. He still peruses the naked pics of people to masturbate when I'm not around and I don't really mind TOO much. The only part I mind is that I wish he was into sex as much as masturbation and naked pictures!

Anyway, we had some fun times getting naked on web cam. One time I shaved for him and we used to capture pics of each other to look at later. So, when I say, maybe I should hook up the webcam, I mean it! Unfortnately our computers are side by side, so I guess some of the excitement gets lost. heh

... oh, and what is up with the spamming comments!?!?! I've never had that before... how annoying and stupid. DO people believe that we'll actually go to the sites? Dumb.

The Time Thing

I'm planning to be off work for a couple of weeks, so I guess I might finally get a chance to write some more here! It's hard to right about my man when he's sitting right there next to me! ahaha

We haven't had a sex life lately, but at least this was because of medical reasons. It may even be another week or two before we have sex! OH MY GOSH! Will we make it? I dunno... even HE is missing it. I think this might be a good thing! I'm hoping he is DYING for it soon. =)

I'll be back to write about something REAL on Wednesday or so.

Frustration of Another Kind

I hate that it is so challenging for me to find both the time and the opportunity (simultaneously) to write here. I mean, 2 weeks since I posted that! ACK! I did bring it up to him and he insisted that he did have an orgasm and when I questioned him he was angered that I was calling him a "liar". I explained where I was coming from and asked him to try to see it from my perspective: if I had moved my body in a way that was not my "normal" movements (c'mon, we're married... I know how the guy moves!) and overall he had the impression that I didn't cum and then there was NO lubrication in me, wouldn't he suspect that I had "faked it"? He said he would and that he can see where I'm coming from. He said that he didn't understand about him "moving differently" which was a little irritating to me. But, maybe guys just don't have the - hell, I don't know what to call it. Whatever it is that makes us recognize when our guy is trying to cum because he has some sort of rhythm! Overall, the conversation wasn't bad. I still don't know if I believe him which isn't a good feeling for either of us. I just want to have a great sex life. Am I asking for the world here?

We did have some yummy sex LAST WEDNESDAY morning. When the alarm went off at 4:45, I revisited the horniness that had kept me up for hours the night before as he slept and pretty much attacked him. The sex was pretty good, but it usually is if I'm the one making all of the moves. Unfortunately, taking charge doesn't get my motor revved like being taken charge OF does. But, Koochie Taster hit it on the head. I want him to lust for me and ache for me and to be so hot around me that he fucks me on the kitchen floor if that's where we happen to be. The thing is, that doesn't appear to be in the cards for me. So, I write about it here. You know my story. I love him and except for this little corner of our world, I'm happy. But damn there has GOT to be something I can do to bring back that libido he had when it was new. SHould I plug in a web cam? hahaha Ah, I guess I'll tell that story later...